Time seems to be on my mind a lot lately. Where did the time go that my daughter is now seventeen, but it seems like just yesterday that she was learning to walk? Where did the time go that is already the last month of the year, and what a year it has been? Where did the time go that we are almost halfway through the school year, and yet I am so exhausted? Where did the time go that we are less than a year away from elections that could change the course of our country, and I know I have a lot of work ahead of me to see that change? Where did the time go that I have been in my new home for six months, but it feels like so much longer? Where did the time go?
Time can fly by in an instant when you want it to last forever. Time can crawl by when you want it to move. Time can be wasted. Time can be cherished. Time can be painful. Time can be joyful. Time can make you cry. Time can make you laugh. Time can be a quiet mind. Time can be demons screaming in your head. Time cannot be controlled, but time can managed by how we fly through it and how we deal with the smooth times and the turbulence.
Time is going to continue to pass me by and I can either fight it or learn to make the most of each and every minute. My kids will be grown and spreading their wings before I know it, and therefore I need to ensure that I find more ways to spend quality time with them. My job will be there each and every year, and if the passion is gone from that job, then I need to figure out where my new passion is and start doing that. My country will keep growing, and I will have to make sure my voice is heard. My home is my own, and I need to enjoy the small things about it that bring me joy. My life is my own right now more than ever, and I am learning to enjoy the time I spend with myself.
With each passing year, I learn a little more about how strong I am. With each passing month, I move away from more of the pain that kept me from loving myself. With each passing day, my authentic self is more in command. With each passing minute, my passions are beginning to take the lead. With each passing second, I learn to appreciate my life more than ever. With each passage of time, my warrior is setting me free and I am changing.
I will embrace the passage of time, for I know that is bringing me towards where the warrior has always known I would go, even when the demons have fought her tooth and nail. I will embrace the passage of time, for I know that I have much to offer those around me, if I learn to trust myself more and ignore the quiet whispers of the demons. I will embrace the passage of time, for I know that those that love me need me to be there for them and them be there for me when the demons are reaching through the cracks. I will embrace the passage of time, for I know that my intentions are good and even if time feels like it is slipping through my fingers because I am fighting my demons. I will embrace the passage of time. I will embrace the time with my kids. I will embrace the time with my family. I will embrace the time with my students. I will embrace the time with my friends. I will embrace the time with my resistance family. I will embrace time.