They have returned. They found a way through the cracks. They waited patiently for the warrior to take a break. They have waited quietly for me to get run down. They have waited hungrily for a chance to be fed. They have waited and now they have returned.
I can hear them whispering those messages I have heard for years. I can hear them telling me I am not good enough. I can hear them laughing as they tell me that I am ugly. I can hear them chanting you are unworthy. I can hear them all the time and I know they have returned.
I need my warrior to wake up. I need my warrior to fight back. I need my warrior to scream. I need my warrior, but only I can set her free. Only I can give her the tools she needs to fight back. Only I can provide the nutrients she needs to get stronger and put the demons back in their cages.
I am doing what I can to keep my mask in place. I am doing what I can to give my warrior strength. I am doing what I can to ignore the demon’s words. I am doing what I can to take back control. I am doing the best I can right now.
I know I am a warrior. I know I am stronger than my demons. I know that I need to face them yet again. I know that I am resilient. I know that I need to do more. I know what I need to do, but I am so tired.
I will put them back in their cages. I will make them quiet again. I will starve them. I will free the warrior to rise like a phoenix. I will free my warrior to remind me that I am enough, I am worthy, and I am beautiful. I will not let them keep me in the dark when I know how good it feels to be in the light.